Maybe This is the Big Come-Back Post?

Meh, not really! I need to revamp my blog, it's looking a little passe at the moment...anyone good with html?

Classes are kicking my butt already, which is probably why the blog is coming back...procrastination at its finest!!
Going home tomorrow on the bolt bus...this is probably the only time I'll be in DC until Thanksgiving Break and then Winter Break, so i'll do my best to enjoy it!

I apologize...this is lame. These posts will get better, I promise!!

3am delirium

soooooo i'm about to move out of fulton after being there all summer and move into my NEW APARTMENTTTT!! :D

so i'm my excitement, i'm doing a facebook survey...hahaha!

sorry that this is my big come-back post for the time being!

Who is your best friend?
i like to think that i have a couple, but probably my brother :)


Who did you last say “I love you” to?
alyssa over the phone

Do you regret it?
haha nooo

Have you ever been depressed?
not clinically, after italy i was pretty depressed, and after Tia passed away <3

How do you want to die?
when i'm old, and in my sleep

What did you last eat? Where?
charlys delivery in front of my comp...GREASY as usual :/

Where do you wish you were right now?
either in my new apt, or at home (both of which will be occurring tomorrow!)

Do you bite your nails?
NO it's gross! my mother showed my bros and i what under your fingernails under a microscope once...needless to say i don't bite my nails :/

What is your real name?
Stephanie (no shock there)

Are you gonna get high later?
highly unlikely

Do you hate anyone at the moment?
not hate exactly, i've got a shit list though with quite a few members :/

Do you miss someone?
of course :)

do you tan a lot?
negatory

How exactly are you feeling?
anxious, can't sleep, worried that i'm not done packing and won't wake up on time for mother dearest's arrival

Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
yeah, a lot actually

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
alyssa

Are you scared of spiders?
YES! i'm scared of anything that has more than 4 legs :/

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
sometimes i think yes, usually no...re-living certain moments would be nice

Do you regret anything from your past?
no, everything happens for a reason

Have you hugged someone today?
yes :)

Do you want to have kids?
not really...

Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
my brother michael? lame haha

You type fast?
indeed

Do you have piercings?
4 total! two in each ear!

Who is your last text from?
alyssaaaa

Can you spell well?
i'm an english major, so i hope so!

What do you miss?
being home with my family <3

Who are you thinking of right now?
lol good charlotte actually just came on my itunes, so flashbacks of high school mostly hahaha

What are you listening to?
good charlotte-girls & boys (it's on my 90s playlist, though that wasn't very 90s)

Kissed someone in a truck?
sadly, yes...can i pull the VA card? lol

Have you ever been cheated on?
not to my knowledge

Have you made a boyfriend/ girlfriend cry?
not to my knowledge

Would you live with someone without marrying them?
YES!! i strongly believe in living with someone for a few YEARS (yeah, i said it) before getting married!!

What should you be doing?
homework, packing, sleeping, lots of things

What’s irritating you right now?
my eye...i was washing dishes and dancing to backstreet boys earlier and i got some dishsoap in there...painful!!

Have you ever liked someone so much it hurts?
school-girl crushes are a force to be reckoned with...hahaha!

What's your favorite color?
blue :)

Have you ever changed clothes in public?
in parking lots, yeah! especially if you're going to the beach! haha

Do you have trust issues?
i wouldn't say "issues"...you get a good sense of who will keep your secrets and who won't

Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
my mother is my rock, my best friend, i LOVE her with all of my being <3>

Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
eh i guess so, but probably not a lot, we weren't together for very long

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
not sure...i think it was pasquale at the HP midnight showing (LOL)

Do you give out second chances too easily?
forgive and forget...everybody deserves a second chance! it's the 3rd, 4th, and 5th chances that don't go over so well!

Is this year the best year of your life?
here's hoping!!

What was your child hood nickname?
stephy or chick

Have you ever walked outside naked?
haha not that i can recall

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
checked facebook? lame

Do you act differently around the person you like?
i smile a lot more, depending on nerves i'll either be really quiet or really chatty hahaha

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
christian, we had a photobooth shoot :)

Are you listening to music right now?
yeppers

Who was the last person to make you sad?
myself i guess, i was looking at old pics and missing tia <3

Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
don't think so

Are you currently jealous?
don't think so...

Is cheating ever okay?
i personally don't think so. if you're not happy with the person you're with, find someone else! don't be a coward and stay with that person if you don't have feelings for them and just wind up hurting them later :/

Are you mean?
i would like to think that i'm not :)

Could you keep white shoes clean?
probably not

Do you believe in true love?
i think so! i think that love is one of the truest things there is (romantic much?)

Do you like the outside?
it depends...i'm starting to like it a little bit more as i get older

What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
killer sinus infection :(

Do you wanna get married?
not really, sorry fellas, i'll just stay your forever girlfriend if that's okay :)

Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
i feel like they can come up with a better pet name than baby...

How late did you stay up last night and why?
not sure, probably 2am and probably for no reason

Have you ever been caught sneaking out?
yes, which was silly because it wasn't even that late! we just wanted to get frostys from wendyssss hahaha

What makes you happy?
a lot of things! my family, my friends, learning, acting, performing, reading, feeling productive, music, talented people, animals, helping others, autumn, ice cream (haha)

Would you change your name?
not unless i need a stage name, because my name is a little too common i think, but i love my name :)

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
lol no

Do you watch the news?
sometimes

What’s your zodiac sign?
sagittarius :D

Do you like Subway?
yeah $5 footlongs are a real money-saver

Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
well, that would be a very odd/awkward situation...

Do you talk like your friends?
oh yeah! i picked up so much new lingo this summer hahahaha

Ever purposely avoided someone?
yeahhh hahaha

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
yeah, duh! i love my guy friends :)

Does it matter if your boyfriend/ girlfriend smokes?
no chainsmokers please, but i wouldn't mind in moderation :)

Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
my madre <3

Is there a person you could not live without?
a few...my mom and my brothers for sure! my family <3

long time, no blog

Hey to anybody who reads this!

So once the school year starts, I will definitely be posting on here again! It's been a crazy-awesome summer, though I really don't have much to write about because everything's great! I will be back come September!!

See you then!

Because I'm too embarrassed to post it on Facebook...

I'm bored and wanted to waste my time doing a survey!! lol!

Have you ever drank alcohol straight from the bottle?
yes

What's on your schedule for tomorrow?
gym (hopefully), shower, work, homework, HILTD, CAST PARTY!!!

Is anyone mad at you right now?
maybe, but i don't really care right now

Have you ever seen the movie Twilight?
i dragged a bunch of my friends with me to the midnight showing, even though they didn't want to go...and i own the dvd lol

Do you like to cuddle?
YES it's my fav!

Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?
maybe?

Are you really happy or are you just saying that?
i'm okay...apathetic? it's the end of the semester c'mon

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a M?
other than my mom, no? lol!

What's something that bothers you about girls?
cattiness, gossip queens, and when girls grill people for no reason

Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?
i have NO idea...lol

Are you warm or cold?
when it comes to personality, hopefully warm...my body temp right now, content lol

When will you next be at school?
tomorrow afternoon

The last time you saw your number three?
what?

Who took your display picture?
my brother and i on my macbook

Are there any candles in the room your in?
one fake one (its battery operated)

What's your worst habit?
cracking knuckles and eating

Has anybody ever called you beautiful?
yeah :)

How do you vent anger?
talking to my mom/brothers/roomies/friends

What are you listening to right now?
jay leno

Ever been in a car wreck?
not a wreck, but a minor accident

Have you ever been on a blind date?
nope

Do you have any friends that you've known for 10 years or more?
oh yeah

By what age would you like to be married?
um...whenever? no set age, whenever i want to be

Have you ever made a mistake?
never, i'm perfect...lol

What's the most you have spent for a haircut?
$75 + $15 for tip...eek!

Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?
yeahhh lol

Have you ever peed in public?
when i was younger? lol

Are your ears gauged?
nope

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a J?
yes lol

Would you get married if you could right now?
HELL NO lol

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
tony

Are you in a good mood?
meh...stressed, it's finals week!!

The last person you argued with?
i don't really argue...we had a work thing on monday, so does that count?

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
i like the 70s with no humidity and a light breeze...is that too specific?

Is any part of your body sore?
my feet (blister on one foot, heel spur on the other)

What do you wear more jeans, sweatpants, or slacks?
jeans

Who makes you so mad you could puke?
people who think i'm incompetent/stupid (which feels like a common theme in my life right now)

Are you confident in yourself?
usually

Is there anyone who's a lot like you?
probably...melissa

Do you get offended easily?
nope

What were you doing this morning at 7am?
sleeping

How many different beverages have you had today?
a lot actually

Any plans for tonight?
homework and sleep

Do you dislike anyone right now?
yes

Something you are excited about?
ITALYYYY

Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
no :(

Be honest, what does your last text in your outbox say?
"Haha nah you won't be! I'll make sure of it! Even if we have to sneak you up here somehow! lol!" to my brother

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
yeah...not much changes in a year sadly :/

Who was the first person you talked to today?
dr. raubicheck lol

How late did you stay up last night?
2-2:30am

When was the last time you cried?
yesterday-ish? i think i worked up one tear...lol

What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?
ITALY and SUMMER IN THE CITY!!

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
macy's

Last person you talked to?
gabby

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with the letter T?
don't think so...

Do you like your bed?
it's pretty comfy

Is it easy for others to make you feel intimidated?
not really

Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?
nope

Who will you be sleeping with tonight?
myself

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face?
yesterdayyyyyyyy

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
read catcher in the rye

Do you talk in your sleep?
apparently i've started snoring lately?? eww

When’s the last time you talked to your best friend?
todayyy

The last person you kissed, where are they?
not sure... :/

Do you currently have feelings for anybody?
kinda? i'm just a horny sob right now lol!!

Do you think you've changed over the past year?
i hope sooo

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
yeahhh

What did you do on 4/20?
had rehearsal all day!!

Does anyone know your password besides you?
my brother lol

Plans this weekend?
revlon walk, homework, apartment hunting??

Can you sleep without blankets covering you?
if it's hot as balls, yes

Is the last person you kissed older then you?
yes

Has a girl sat on your bed before?
lol duh...

Are you afraid to grow up?
not afraid...nervously anxious??

Do you like to hold or be held?
both, but i like being on the receiving end

Do you plan on hugging the last person you hugged again?
um...sure! he's a hottie ;)

Does seeing couples in love make you mad?
not mad, just...happy/jealous-ish lol

Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
my mom, yeah probably!! i hope so

How many times do you talk on the phone a day on average?
maybe once or twice...not a lot!

Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?
never

yay procrastination!!

FINALS

Sorry for my lack of blogging lately...it's not only crunch-time for the end of the semester, but it is also been hell week for the show I'm ASMing!

Once the semester is over, I will have much more time to write! :)

So...brief hiatus?? yeah...probably!

Following the crowd...

So within the past week, I have not only gotten a blackberry (it's pink :) haha) that i'm totally addicted to, but I just signed up for a Twitter...

Oh boy!

As if I need more distractions from my MASSIVE pile of homework!

Speaking of, there's only like 2-3 weeks left in the semester, and I'm beginning to panic that I'm not going to be doing so well in some of my classes for the weirdest reasons...

which I guess is why I'm signing up for Twitter, so I can avoid doing my work some more!

Meh, whatever...I'm trying not to freak too much (yet)! I don't have rehearsal tonight, so my roomies and I are going out for dinner! Then...I have to do homework FOR REAL!!!

Should be fun!

Oh yeah, did I mention that it was like 70 degrees out today?? GORGEOUS!!!

So I just signed up for mobile blogging, well see if this is a good idea or not!
Ps I got a pink crackberry over the weekend I've now joined the blackberry cult

I Hate John St. Internet

So the reason for me not posting in forever is because of the lame-ass internet connection in my dorm room! It takes forever and a day to load and blogger.com hasn't even been working on my connection...so my apologies!

I really don't have much to say right now. I'm in the school computer lab printing out 30 pages worth of poetry/essays for my Romanticism class. The loudspeaker just said that the computer lab is closing in 10 minutes...eff my life!

I'm going home tomorrow for passover/Easter break! I'm really excited to go home because, although my spring break was relaxing, my brothers were in school all day and my mom was at work...so I basically sat in my house and did a whole lot of nothing! It was fun...but I actually would like to spend some time with my family!

I have to work at the desk tonight...ick! Not looking forward to it, but maybe I'll get some screenwriting homework done (since I'm still MAJORLY behind in that class!)

The computer lab is closing in five minutes...I'm gonna go for now!

Unnecessary Violence

There was a shooting at Radford University in Virginia today at about 9pm EST. This is obviously an on-going story, but being from Virginia (and unfortunately this is not the first University shooting that has occurred recently in VA), the initial panic that rocks your body when you think of your friends/acquaintances possibly being shot to death is not fun! Fortunately, there has only been one victim so far, compared to Virginia Tech's 30-something, but they have not caught the gunman and he is considered "armed and dangerous", so Radford is on lock-down. Luckily, I've contacted the majority of my friends who go to Radford and have confirmed their safety (thanks Facebook!).

I don't know why all these VA kids are snapping and going on crazy shooting rampages, but this unnecessary violence really needs to stop! It's really unfortunate that these college kids, who have their whole future in front of them, feel that they have to kill and take innocent lives (other college kids who have their whole lives ahead of them too!). Obviously, we don't really know what's going on in these poor people's heads, but I feel like college campuses should take a greater interest in their student's mental health and have plenty of resources available to students who may need counseling.

I know this is a somber post, but I do feel like the mental health of college students is an important issue! College is a stressful time, but it shouldn't come down to school shootings and people taking their frustrations out on innocent people (and all of the family and friends that their deaths effect).

I hope that everybody at Radford is safe in their dorms and that the shooter is apprehended before he can hurt anyone else!

Say whaaa?

People read my blog...

WEIRD!! lol!

I've got to try and make this thing a bit more interesting now instead of me complaining about things...haha!

Thanks to everybody who reads this! I appreciate it!
:)

I'm at work, and bored...

Get to know a little about me!

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER SOMEONE? My middle name is Cecilia, which was my grandmother's name.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Sunday actually, at rehearsal. My friend is an amazing actress and totally made me cry! Haha!

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? It gets the job done...lol!

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Turkey

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? No way!

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Probably, I'm kind of cool sometimes!

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM? It's my second language.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Yes

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? No freaking way! I would shit my pants! Haha!

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Raisin Bran Crunch...I'm an old woman!

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Nope, most of my shoes don't have laces actually.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Mint Chocolate Chip or any chocolate/fruit combo.

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? The vibe they're giving off.

15. RED OR PINK? Red (I'm not really a pink person)

16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? my pudge

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? my mother and brothers :(

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST? it's on my blog...so no?

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? dark denim jeans and ugg boots

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? The sound of "The Price is Right" on the TV in the lobby...someone is yodeling?

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? i always enjoyed midnight blue

23. FAVORITE SMELL? really clean, sexy-smelling cologne ;)

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? text-wise: my step-sister, on the actual phone: probably my mother

25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? yes i do, she's wonderful

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? BASEBALL!!!! (it's really my ONLY sport I watch!)

27. HAIR COLOR? brown

28. EYE COLOR? baby blues

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? nope

30. FAVORITE FOODS? cannolis, green beans, sweet potato pie, and really anything my grandmother makes!

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING? Happy Ending--I am PETRIFIED of watching scary movies! I have a very overactive imagination :/

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? I just read the screenplay of "American Beauty" and supposedly I'm getting it in the mail via Netflix today :)

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? white

34. SUMMER OR WINTER? SUMMER!!

35. HUGS OR KISSES? both ;)

36. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF SOMEONE YOU LIKED ASKED YOU OUT? Say yes to them?

37. HOW ARE YOU MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? smile and say "yes" haha

38. HOW ARE YOU LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? throwing up on the spot LOL

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Just finished Frankenstein and American Beauty, so now I'm on Chinatown and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (for Screenwriting) and either Catcher in the Rye or On The Road (depending on what my prof assigns for Romanticism)

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? the comp in the lobby doesn't have one :/

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? My roomies were watching "Real Housewives of NY" or whatever it's called

42. FAVORITE SOUNDS? people laughing, sound of running water (ocean, rain, river, etc.) and people who can SANG

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? THE BEATLES

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? I sing? I can pretend to play four different instruments? I can make my tongue into a CLOVER!

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? West Islip, NY

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? Nobodyyy

48. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER? SINGLE and ready to mingle ;)



So that was fun...hahaha!

Easier Said Than Done

This has nothing to do with what I wanted to write about tonight...but it was so nice outside the other day! I was in such a good mood (which, I'm sure you've seen from my blogs, doesn't happen as often as it should) so I "woke up early" and went to City Hall Park and had lunch, just enjoying the sun and the warm! So amazingly wonderful! :)

Anyways...I'm ASM for a show right now at my school. I haven't done legit tech work since high school, so I wanted to try my hand at stage managing! So far, I haven't really done too much, but it's been really fun and the cast is amazing! But what I wanted to talk about was how much easier it seems to be for me to get into other people's characters more than my own. Maybe it's because you're looking from an outside perspective, but I've found that it's easier for me to do "work" on someone else's character than if I'm working on one of my own.

The idea that I'm thinking about this too much is definitely possible, but it's something I've been thinking about lately. The fact that I'm a sophomore theater major and I "don't have a monologue" really scares me! Of course, this is easily fixed...FIND A MONOLOGUE! But I feel like it's more than that sometimes. It seems like all of my peers have established techniques when it comes to their acting. They're method actors, or they do 17 page character descriptions, or they do stream-of-consciousness journals, or they do sense-memory exercises, etc. etc. etc. I've been officially studying theater for almost two years, and I still don't FEEL like I "have a method" that I use. Then again, sometimes I feel like I'm self-conscious because I haven't had an opportunity to really showcase my talents (or what have you). But then again, I feel like that reason lies partially in the respect that I "don't have a monologue" that I feel comfortable with.

I must suck at picking out material because I can't seem to connect to anything that I'm picking out. I've literally put off memorizing my monologue for my scene study class simply because there's nothing substantial in it, it's just an "angry" monologue, or a "sad" monologue...there's no real material behind it. Another issue, I have all of these resources at my disposal (and I mean, I'm studying theater, at Pace, in Manhattan...what more could I ask for?) but I don't use them? WTF Stephanie!!! THIS IS WHY YOU CAME TO NEW YORK!!

So I guess this post has mainly been a swift kick in the ass for myself to stop being an idiot and dive into what I love doing!! (And stop doing other people's work for them!)

:)

I Felt Like This Needed Its Own Post?

Is it possible to feel tired, apathetic, horny, depressed, excited, anxious, nervous, nauseous, worthless, optimistic, content and OLD at the same time???

it's probably because i'm at work and it's only 1:30am :/

FML todayyyy...I WANT WARM WEATHER NOW!!

We're Baaaaaccckkk

So I intentionally did NOT write in this over Spring Break. Not exactly sure of the reasoning behind it, but oh well!

But now I'm back in New York, and it feels like I didn't even HAVE a break, of course!

I'm at work, and I HATE it, and I'm REALLY BEHIND in my Screenwriting class (and I'm not sure how that happened)...

Whatever...FML? Yeah...definitely!

SUCCESS!!

I made it through the day/week, and I am AT HOME!!!

:D

Survival of the Fittest

What I have to do in order to make it to Spring Break:

1. Survive another 40 minutes at the Desk

2. Wake up successfully at 8:20am

3. Bring packed suitcase and bags to work

4. Be AT WORK by 9am

5. Public Speaking Oral Midterm (which I have not studied for?)

6. Be back at work by 2:30pm for 22 PEOPLE ON TOUR! (FML)

7. Be DONE with tours by 5pm (NO EXCEPTIONS!)

8. Hail a cab/take the subway to Penn Station for my 6:30 bus!

9. GET ON THE BUS

10. Make it successfully to DC (which includes my mom finding the bus station and picking me up!)

11. GO HOME!!! :D

GOD, I CANNOT WAIT!!

Romantic?

So I'm taking this class called Romanticism & the Modern World, and its taught by the head of the English Department at my school (whom I LOVE!) and basically, thus far, we've read and discussed the "Big Six" Romantic English poets--Wordsworth, Coleridge, Blake, Keats, Byron, and Shelley.

Now, I grew up in the suburbs of Northern Virginia, literally walking distance from Algonkian Park, a car ride away from the Skyline Drive, the Shenandoah Mts/Valley/River, the Blue Ridge Mts (my fav growing up), and all of the parks and monuments of Washington DC. I think it's safe to say that I've had my fair share of nature. My dad used to take us camping, hiking, exploring, and at one point, we even had a cabin ON the Shenandoah River. I always considered myself to be a "city girl"...and hey, look at me now! :)

But here's where I start to stray...when forced on these nature outings, I always resented them. Whether I was just being a 13 year old girl, or because I wasn't getting along with my dad (or his gf at the time), or because I actually DID NOT enjoy myself--I'm not sure, it was probably a combination of the three. But recently, probably now that I'm living in New York City where City Hall Park and Battery Park are the only types of "nature" that are within walking distance of my building, I'm beginning to WANT to be in nature?

When I go home (and even during my senior year), whenever I wanted to retreat somewhere, AWAY from people, I would go to Algonkian Park and just sit in my car or on the benches and think. It was quiet, depending on the time of day, there weren't too many people there, you could usually find a deer or two grazing around the fields--it was really peaceful. When I went home after Tia passed away in September, I found myself spending more and more time on this dirty little bench, just watching the river...for those of you who know me, that is kind of out-of-the-ordinary.

While I'm thinking of it, I admire my cousin Brian SO MUCH! He lives in California and before he got a Facebook earlier this month, I probably talked to him about once a year on the phone, and saw him in person about 3-4 years ago! EEK! I almost began feeling like he was this estranged, mysterious person whose life I only imagined. After being his Facebook friend, I finally feel as though I've solved the mystery and now I'm DYING to be part of his almost picturesque, Romantic life. He spends his free-time climbing mountains, exploring deserts, and learning how to conduct mountain rescues for hikers, etc. I feel as though he is living this peaceful, happy, lets-go-commune-with-Nature, Romantic lifestyle and compared to my micro-managed, NYC, go-Go-GO, superficial, theatrical lifestyle...well, it's something that I really want to experience and share with him!

Anyways, whether I'm on some pantheistic kick right now, I don't know...but here are (what I think are) the reasons why all of a sudden I want to pack up my suitcase, jump in a car and "be 'On The Road' like Jack Kerouac":

-LIT212R: Romanticism & the Modern World

-Into the Wild by Jon Krakauer (I read the book AND watched the movie)

-Twilight series (odd, but it takes place in the Pacific Northwest)

-My cousin Brian (an all-around outdoorsmen...I think the ONLY ONE in our family)

-My aunt Kristin (from Portland, OR/also runs along the Twilight vein)

-Life/College/Stress (who doesn't just want to pack up their shit and hit the road at 20 years old?)

-Dorm Room--Maybe I just need to live in a room that GETS SOME SUNLIGHT! :/

Well, whatever it is, I unfortunately must conclude, because it is 3:45am and I have work in the morning (Why must I get philosophical late at night?) but yeah...who's up for a roadtrip across the Continental US??

Weekend Update

Um...I guess the summation of this weekend would be:

Never again.

And as Forrest Gump says, "That's all I've got to say about that."

*More later when I'm done writing my scenes for Screenwriting :)

Countdown to Spring Break...

I've been sitting her at my computer for quite some time now, looking at an empty text-box, trying to figure out what the hell to write about. I know I want to write, but I don't want to be whiny and complain...because I do have a LOT that I could complain about, but rehashing my shitty day right before I go to sleep isn't really something I want to do.

Let me talk about what I'm EXCITED FOR in my life:

-Spring Break! I'm going home Fri/Sat, hanging in VA, possibly getting some Sub Days in there, spending time with my family, AND THEN going to Penn State to visit Kristin, spending quality time with her and her boyfriend, getting wasted, and making some less-than-honorable decisions!! ;)

-ITALY!!! ITALY ITALY ITALY ITALY ITALY!!! :D

-Staying in the City for the summer (FO FREE) and everything that comes along with it, which hopefully will include being an OL, PALS, waitressing/bartending?, taking a cooking class, working out everyday, exploring the city, having cool people come visit me and doing all of those things listed above with them!!

-Getting my OWN APARTMENT with Melissa :)

-Elton John and Billy Joel, in concert...TOGETHER!!

-With all of my extra millions lying around, saving up money to go visit my cousin Brian in San Diego when he and his wife have their baby!!

Well, I'm sure there are other things I'm excited about as well, but those are the ones that are coming to mind! And it is now 3:16am as I am finishing this...so I am bidding you all goodnight!

Yay! I'm going to sleep thinking positive, happy thoughts!! :)

Why Do I Only Write at 2am?

My MacBook--my life, my pride and joy, the thing that holds my life together (sadly enough)--is breaking. I mean that in the most literal of senses...it's literally breaking.

I don't know what I did to it, if I said something to offend it, if it's mad at me for leaving it on the charger for too long, but it's breaking, and I don't know what to do about it! Right where I rest my right hand/wrist, along the front edge, the plastic (or whatever the outside is made of) is breaking off into little pieces!! :(

I'm sure if I run to the Apple Store, the Geniuses are just going to laugh at me (especially since I've been saving the tiny pieces that have broken off already), but I don't want to hurt my baby!! I also can't live without my Mac, as sad as that is. I literally check iCal everyday to figure out what I'm supposed to be doing, what is due in class that day, etc. etc. This piece of machinery has literally become an extension of me.

Luckily, I have that forever-warranty from when I bought my Mac before college (which has already saved my ass this time last year when my hard-drive crashed!) so I don't think it would cost me anything to have it fixed...I guess I should bring it to have it checked out.

And hey, maybe that cool Genius from Reston is still there! :)

S.A.D?

So I typically love the cold weather--I love the snow, I love bundling up, I love Christmas, spiked hot chocolate, boots, etc.  But this year...I don't know, I'm just not feeling it!

My roommate was talking the other day about Seasonal Affective Disorder, which is essentially people who get depressed during the winter months because of less sunlight, having to stay indoors, the cold weather, etc.  I don't think I actually have S.A.D. but I definitely think that this past winter has not been as "happy" as my previous.  I can't pinpoint an exact reason either--it could be a multitude of possibilities, I guess.

But I don't want to dwell on the past, because although I just had a snow day (on March 2nd, mind you), it's SPRING SEMESTER and daylight savings is around the corner, and the warm weather is ALMOST HERE!!  I'm tired of feeling trapped in my dorm room, I'm tired of feeling like I don't experience the city to its fullest because it's too damn cold to walk around!  I remember last spring was so great!  Despite the fact that my friends and I were essentially running on no sleep the entire semester (staying up until about 4am or later every night, like I am again tonight), I remember having this feeling of spring, of warmth, of optimism, of realizing that I can in fact GET THROUGH my classes and there would be a reward afterwards--SUMMER!!  I have this urge, this desire to feel that way again--my life has been sucking a little too much lately.  And I'm not saying that in just the "my life sucks" kind of way, I mean it in a literal sense as well!  My life (and lifestyle) is physically, emotionally and mentally DRAINING!

I'm the type of person who likes to keep herself busy.  There's nothing wrong with that, but I've been realizing that I do it to a fault:  I load myself up with so many things that I run myself into the ground until the point of complete exhaustion, and then I fall apart at the seams.  I've been getting a little bit better at managing myself and keeping myself in check, but I slip up occasionally.  Here's my life right now:

-15 credits (I just dropped my 9am ITA 102 for the second time because I never went!  Sorry, I just cannot do 9am!)

-PALS Coordinator (Essentially a 9-5 job, whenever I'm not in class)

-DA (Tues, Thurs, and Sat nights from 11pm-2am)

-Two Shows, sadly one of them is ending tonight at 7:30 (Vagina Monologues) and the other is really just getting started but will be rehearsing practically every single day (including Sat & Sun)

-Homework??

Anyway, I'm not trying to complain about my life in this post, because to be honest, I LOVE everything that I'm doing and it takes a lot for me to give anything up (even if I hate it on occasion).  Basically, I want it to be spring so I can get some Vitamin D from the sun and be happy again! :)

Snow Day = :D

So according to weather.com, we are going to receive approximately a foot of snow in the NY Metropolitan area, so thankfully Pace University cancelled classes for tomorrow! YAY! :D

Of course, the jury is still out on whether or not I'll have work tomorrow morning--I love PALS, but I would love a day to SLEEP (since I forgot to do that this weekend).

Speaking of...

This weekend, my HS Drama Dept. came up to NYC on their annual field trip, which was GREAT because I got to see my brother and all our friends!  I am supremely jealous, however, that my brother got to see Guys & Dolls, West Side Story AND In The Heights all in one weekend (when I still have not seen any of them!).  Not only was my brother (and all his HS friends) here in the city this weekend, but also my two friends Joe and Gabe were up looking at colleges AND my friend Stephany was visiting from Harvard!  So basically, my whole hometown was in the city ALL IN ONE WEEKEND!  Insanity!!  I constantly beg and plead with my friends back home to come and visit me in the city, and they all separately decide to come up on the same weekend?  Like I said, INSANITY, but soo much fun!

So now I'm sitting in my dorm room, being completely unproductive (which is BAD because I'm way behind in my Screenwriting class right now) but for now, I'm relishing in my Snow-Day Bliss, listening to Billy Joel, and just enjoying my 2:40am-ness!

Speaking of the Piano Man, my mother is the most amazing woman on Earth!  She texted me this morning and told me that she purchased us tickets to the Billy Joel/Elton John concert this summer in DC at the National's Ballpark!!  Now, I've been fortunate enough to have seen Billy Joel in concert already in my lifetime, but I have never seen Sir Elton John before, and I was reading an article that I found on Google that stated that they could be sitting at adjacent pianos ON STAGE--two music LEGENDS on the same stage performing TOGETHER, their own separate stuff, and then TOGETHER AGAIN at the end!!  Needless to say, I am so incredibly excited for this concert and so incredibly grateful to my mother for buying these tickets for us!

So since I have not slept at all this weekend (and had a blast while doing so), I am going to go to sleep now.  Enjoy your snow days East Coast!  I hope everyone's school is as cool as mine and gives you a well-deserved DAY OFF!!

:)

A Thursday Night at the John St. Desk

So I'm working again tonight.  I really hate this job, and would have quit a long time ago if it wasn't such easy money.  PAY DAY TOMORROW!

But more importantly, practically all of my friends from back home just so happen to be coming to New York this weekend!  This list of favorites includes:  my brother, all of my HS Drama friends, and my asian from Harvard!!  This weekend is going to be SO MUCH FUN!!

My asian is staying with me in the dorm, and my brother/HS people are staying uptown on their field trip, and a couple of my senior friends are visiting Hofstra, then hanging in the city!  It's going to be so good to see all of them!  I miss my friends back home so much (and I love it even more when they come up to the city to visit me!)

This Just In:  The printer at the desk just ran out of paper, so I now have to handwrite all of the passes...JOY! :/  (It's only 12:16am at this point in time--approximately two more hours to go!)

I'm gonna play around with the look of this blog some more!  It's better than doing homework! :)

Sooo true!

One of my friends just posted this link as their Facebook status!  I read it, found it scarily TRUE and hilarious!!

Click here!

Enjoy!

Third Time's A Charm?

So I believe that this is my third attempt at starting a blog...

Hopefully it works out this time!